Judas clenched his jaw against a sudden swell of emotion and turned away, not wanting to face this. He tried to think of something to respond with, and shook his head. "How can he? I don't even remember what he looked like any more. I can't see his face in my mind, just his voice asking me why I betrayed him-" He broke off and rubbed his hands on his face. "Stop it. Just- don't. Please."