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WHO: Greed & Zoe
WHEN: Backdated last Tuesday night
WHERE: Zoe's apartment
WHAT: Can we talk?
WARNING: Objects in mirror may be closer than they appear

The apartment was dark, the only light on in Zoe's bedroom, her door closed. The place was too empty and quiet and she tried to convince herself that she wanted to be alone right now anyways. Zoe was in her jammies of PJ bottoms and a tank top and she sat on her messy bed with a book in her lap, only occasionally stopping to make notes. She was trying to keep her mind off things. She'd turned her phone off since the day before, since.. it happened. She didn't know what would be worse, hearing Greed's excuse or finding out she didn't have any messages from him at all. Both scenarios were pretty bad so she just left the blasted thing off.

Her morning with Patience had drained her and left her more confused and upset than ever. She tried hard to not let what he was saying get to her but she knew it did. And she couldn't even ask Greed about it because he was God knows where.. who cared, he wasn't here. She felt like an idiot.

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This honesty thing gave him back more than he'd imagined. It was a helpful trick, confiding in others with this result. "I don't always force, sometimes its just a seed of an idea, a whisper, a touch, but you saw me first. You opened the door before I did."

He shook his head. "Your want is not like my want. I would kill myself to get what I wanted." He would run himself ragged and still keep going. Once his grip was around it, there was no giving it back unless he absolutely didn't want it anymore...and that just didn't happen very often. Humans were toys, they broke after a little bit of rough play. "Josie wore out...but I held on tight."

Honesty really was the best trick that wasn't a trick. Zoe was surprised but happy to hear that Greed hadn't influenced her even a whisper and she couldn't help but smile a little.

She rubbed his arm and said slowly, "Did Josie wear out... because you held on tight?" thinking back to Patience saying he was controlling and one other thing, "Freddie said you take without giving back.." and if Greed had forced Josie then it was understandably that the girl was simply sucked dry.

"I wanted to keep her longer. I liked her. I think..." Not even Lust knew this, "I think I'd started to believe I could love so I kept on holding on. When she jumped...I..." He'd run. He'd been so stunned all he could do was run and drown himself in his own hole.

Zoe stayed close to him and kept rubbing his arm, it was heartbreaking to hear him. "You what..?" she gently asked. She had a feeling that he really hadn't even admitted these things to himself.

"I was lost. So I ran." He hadn't felt that before. So strongly. "I'd been away too long." Years upon years upon years without Lust or Glutt. He kept his eyes forward. "I hurt a lot of people then." He'd killed, he was a Sin, it didn't mean he always went that route. Josie had been different. Greed had been angry. "I'm not bad am I?"

Part of Zoe understood why Patience had been so horrified at her liking Greed of her own will. She.. didn't blame him. Maybe if it was someone else, she'd be judging them too. She was quiet and as much as she wanted to tell him no he wasn't, she wouldn't lie. "You're... not evil." which is what Patience had implied. "You've done bad things but.. I think 'Greed' is what you are, not.. who you are." because when she looked at him, she didn't see a Sin. She saw a person. And she wondered if maybe Greed never saw himself as a person.. if he only saw his namesake.