This was slightly awkward. "His name is Judas," Mary said. "And, uh, I asked you kill him for me once, do you remember?"
"I don't blame them," Mary said, trying to work out how to make it more clear. She felt like she was making a mess of it all, which wasn't surprising. These weren't thoughts she had really articulated outloud before. "But there's a wariness, even with the ones who hate the church and the way it's run. They're good people - well, some of them are - even friends, but I can't help that deep down mistrust. Because we are what the church made us and not a single one of us is the same as we were at the beginning, or even a decade ago in some cases. Just like that other Mary is in me, there's other versions of them as well. Because our religion is so alive and has so many millions of people arguing over what it means and who God is... it makes me scared."
"And..." she added with a sigh, holding her glass tightly, "I realise right now I'm not making a very good case for any reason you'd want to be with me." Here she was talking about the changeable nature of Christians when she was hoping to find a way into his life.
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Date: 2013-05-16 05:18 am (UTC)"I don't blame them," Mary said, trying to work out how to make it more clear. She felt like she was making a mess of it all, which wasn't surprising. These weren't thoughts she had really articulated outloud before. "But there's a wariness, even with the ones who hate the church and the way it's run. They're good people - well, some of them are - even friends, but I can't help that deep down mistrust. Because we are what the church made us and not a single one of us is the same as we were at the beginning, or even a decade ago in some cases. Just like that other Mary is in me, there's other versions of them as well. Because our religion is so alive and has so many millions of people arguing over what it means and who God is... it makes me scared."
"And..." she added with a sigh, holding her glass tightly, "I realise right now I'm not making a very good case for any reason you'd want to be with me." Here she was talking about the changeable nature of Christians when she was hoping to find a way into his life.