She didn’t know that he’d been able to tell things were off with her. He hadn’t said anything about it so she assumed he didn’t notice or didn’t care. But then again isn’t that what she’d been doing with him? She smacked his chest again but lightly, “You’re a shit Sin.” she grumbled. Her fingers now resting on his torso idly moved up and down as she said the flat out truth, “I got scared. Between Lust and my grandfather... I mean when I realized I didn’t care and I.. L-worded you, you acted like it was this diseased thing. Even the way you touched me... you were different with me and I..” she looked at his shirt, still glad he couldn’t see her face, “.. I can’t not have you in my life. I panicked. I felt like you were looking for an excuse to leave.” so if she made him happy, he wouldn’t have a reason to go. _______________________________
“Okay lets get one thing straight. I don’t look for excuses to leave. If I wanted to I’d just go and say so. I’m not some half assed boy that tries to build lame ass lies. If I wanted to give you a lie it would be so damn good you wouldn’t know the difference.” And what she had forgotten was he didn’t lie to her. Not because he’d planned it that way, but because she made it so easy to just be. A lie got him nowhere with her. It didn’t benefit him in any way. It wasn’t an escape route, nor did it make him get what he wanted. It was the opposite. “You saw what you wanted to see.” He kept telling her that. She could explain it to other people easy, but she needed to remember when she started pulling faces he did too. He was the mirror reflection of what others wanted of him. “Moreover I’ve been shit pissed at Lust for weeks now, we went over this. I was off getting high or playing video games because you for a moment wanted to be this girl that I didn’t know anymore.” He could see it now. She wanted him as much as he wanted her. That fear of losing what you had wasn’t any less for either of them. _______________________________ That was true. She was sure if Greed wanted to leave, he’d just go. In that sense it was good he wasn’t just some normal human boy. “I know... I know.” she continued tracing a pattern on his shirt with her finger as she then said, “In the spirit of coming clean... I offered you your space partly because I felt that at least that way if you were distant then it’d be at least something that I came up with so it wouldn’t be like you were leaving me..” it was a shitty thing but there it was. If Zoe proposed the idea of separation instead of him just doing it on his own then maybe it would have hurt less. It didn’t. “If I hadn’t offered it... what would you have done..?” she just wanted to know if things would have worked out between them or if he’d have just avoided her for awhile. _______________________________
“I would have said. I’ll see you in a few days.” He spoke flatly because it was the most obvious answer to him. She usually made him be the man when she let him take control of a situation, but sometimes he needed the push and pull or this wasn’t going to work. If he could steamroll right over her then he was going to have another tragedy on his hands too soon. _______________________________ She digested what he said.. all of what he’d been saying really and finally turned her head a little so she could look up at his face with her big brown eyes, “I should’ve just told you you were being a jerk and to come over when you’d gotten your head out of your ass.” she said it in an almost sad voice that was more dull in tone because if she hadn’t been freaked out and scared (which the L word tended to do to people) that would have been how she would have handled it. She had felt rejected though.. forgetting that Greed was in it for the long haul, he had no plans to get rid of her.
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“Okay lets get one thing straight. I don’t look for excuses to leave. If I wanted to I’d just go and say so. I’m not some half assed boy that tries to build lame ass lies. If I wanted to give you a lie it would be so damn good you wouldn’t know the difference.” And what she had forgotten was he didn’t lie to her. Not because he’d planned it that way, but because she made it so easy to just be. A lie got him nowhere with her. It didn’t benefit him in any way. It wasn’t an escape route, nor did it make him get what he wanted. It was the opposite. “You saw what you wanted to see.” He kept telling her that. She could explain it to other people easy, but she needed to remember when she started pulling faces he did too. He was the mirror reflection of what others wanted of him. “Moreover I’ve been shit pissed at Lust for weeks now, we went over this. I was off getting high or playing video games because you for a moment wanted to be this girl that I didn’t know anymore.” He could see it now. She wanted him as much as he wanted her. That fear of losing what you had wasn’t any less for either of them.
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That was true. She was sure if Greed wanted to leave, he’d just go. In that sense it was good he wasn’t just some normal human boy. “I know... I know.” she continued tracing a pattern on his shirt with her finger as she then said, “In the spirit of coming clean... I offered you your space partly because I felt that at least that way if you were distant then it’d be at least something that I came up with so it wouldn’t be like you were leaving me..” it was a shitty thing but there it was. If Zoe proposed the idea of separation instead of him just doing it on his own then maybe it would have hurt less. It didn’t. “If I hadn’t offered it... what would you have done..?” she just wanted to know if things would have worked out between them or if he’d have just avoided her for awhile.
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“I would have said. I’ll see you in a few days.” He spoke flatly because it was the most obvious answer to him. She usually made him be the man when she let him take control of a situation, but sometimes he needed the push and pull or this wasn’t going to work. If he could steamroll right over her then he was going to have another tragedy on his hands too soon.
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She digested what he said.. all of what he’d been saying really and finally turned her head a little so she could look up at his face with her big brown eyes, “I should’ve just told you you were being a jerk and to come over when you’d gotten your head out of your ass.” she said it in an almost sad voice that was more dull in tone because if she hadn’t been freaked out and scared (which the L word tended to do to people) that would have been how she would have handled it. She had felt rejected though.. forgetting that Greed was in it for the long haul, he had no plans to get rid of her.