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WHO: Wrath and George
WHAT: I AM SORRY I SUCK SO HARD IN THE BAD WAY
WHEN: Tuesday? Whatever day today is. I am so good at this
WHERE: George's
WARNINGS: Wrath's sailor mouth and self-harm



Wrath had now had a few days to stew over her fight with George. At first she had been furious, but her night out with Lust had fixed that. Then there was just sadness which, over time, converted to self-loathing as it always did with Wrath. She now felt like the entire fight was her fault, and everything bad that ever happened to them was her fault and George couldn't possibly hate her more than she hated herself.

It was only spotting the Saint George bracelet Patrick had gotten her, sitting benignly on her nightstand, which made her seek George out instead of just taking everything out on herself. He was a saint and maybe there as a chance, a slim one, that he didn't hate her and he wouldn't break up with her.

That was how she found herself at his door, her skinny arms wrapped around herself. She knocked and then waited, holding her breath and barely able to keep her tears in.

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George was laying on the couch, taking a moment to indulge in some extravagant self-loathing.

"Not even the dogs love me," he muttered into the cushions, looking over where Bunny and Downpatrick were dozing. He heard a noise that may or may not have been Kellan doing the cat equivalent of a snort, but he ignored it. The knock at the door startled him.

"Just a minute!" he called, pulling himself to his feet and putting a shirt on. He opened the door and was very surprised to find Wrath on the other side. "Wrath?"

Yeah...so thought that said "extravagant self-loving" well done, gutterbrain.

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The moment she saw his face she started to cry quietly and she didn't try to move past him in case she wasn't welcome. It was hard to speak but she managed to get out a plaintive, "I'm horrible!" before burying her face in her hands.

Awww yeah, gettin' down with yourself with the animals watching xD

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"Oh, no, no, don't cry," George said, pulling her into a hug and rubbing her back. "Shh, no, it's okay, don't cry. You aren't horrible."

George, you kinky bastard!

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Surprisingly, Wrath let herself be held instead of pushing him away, though it was more for his sake than her own. "I'm so sorry," she wailed against his chest. "I'm not good enough for you."

It's just how he rolls

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"What?" George asked, baffled. He tugged her into the apartment so that they wouldn't be standing in the middle of the hallway. "What are you talking about?"

Re: It's just how he rolls

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She allowed herself to be tugged and then she wrapped her arms around herself again, refusing to look at him. "I- I yelled at you and how you hate me and it's okay because I hate myself too."

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"I-Wrath, no, we just had a fight, that's all." He rested his hands on her shoulders and squeezed gently. "I don't hate you, I could never hate you. I love you. It was just a fight."

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So...they it was just a fight? They weren't over?

Wrath practically slumped forward into him with relief. "I thought you would leave me because I'm so hateful," she admitted. "I'm so sorry I called you so many horrible things!"

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"You aren't hateful," George said, shaking his head. He pulled her into another hug. Seeing her this upset made him upset as well. "You were just mad. I was mad too, and I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to start a fight."

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Wrath hugged him back and then she pulled away and wiped at her nose. She went to sit on his sofa so she could draw her knees up to her chest. Sitting like that she looked so small and unthreatening.

"You didn't start it, I did," she whispered. "I'm horrible and I yelled at you and all you've ever done is try to help me."

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Bunny stretched and got up from her dog bed, wandering over to Wrath to sniff at her curiously. George belatedly realized they hadn't met yet. He went to kneel beside Wrath and pet Bunny.

"You were worried about me," George said. "And I was upset and not good at explaining myself should have just left Lust alone. You're not horrible. Patrick said he and Clio have fought about things like that too, about whether it's okay for him to put himself in danger."

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Wrath glanced at the dog and she wanted to ask what the fuck happened to it's legs, but she didn't. Instead she tried to breathe deeply to relax herself. "I just got all freaked out. I have nightmares sometimes. I was okay when Lust fucked with your head last time, but after Joshua- And I dream it happens sometimes. You show up all jacked up on her and you don't give a shit about how it makes me feel. And then you were pissing her off the other day and I fucking snapped and I'm sorry."

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George wanted to somehow wrap around Wrath and shield her from anything that might do her harm. He had a feeling any attempts to imitate a loveable python wouldn't be appreciated right then, however, so he hugged the dog to his chest instead.

"No, no, it's okay, you don't have to apologize for something like that," George said. "I'm sorry. I didn't know you'd been having dreams like that, or I would have...Wrath, I would never hurt you, okay? Even if your siblings all tagteamed to make me crazy, I would never hurt you."

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"Yeah, well you can't know that. You punched Patrick in the face," she said, hugging herself tightly because she didn't have a dog. "I don't even know why I care, I would deserve it anyway."

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"No you wouldn't!" George said, louder than he intended to. Bunny whined, and he let her go apologetically. "Wrath, you could never deserve that. Nothing you do could ever mean that you deserve that, all right? All right?"

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Wrath pulled her knees up to her chin again and then she pulled her sleeves over her hands and balled her fists up. "But I'm worthless. I'm horrible to everyone and now I was horrible to you too."

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"No you aren't," George said, resting his hands over her fists. "Listen to me. No one is worthless, and especially not you. You aren't horrible, either. You and me know some really horrible people, but you aren't one of them. You just got angry, that's all. Everyone gets angry and says things they probably shouldn't. I did too."

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"I was so mad," she said sadly. "So mad and then that went away and I just wanted to die because I upset you." She still refused to look at him. "I just feel like I disappointed you. Like I let you down. But I can't even die right."

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"Can I give you a hug, because the urge to hug is really strong right now," George said, not moving until she said so. "Upsetting me isn't any reason to hate yourself, sweetheart. I get upset about all kind of stupid things. I was legitimately upset two days ago because the taco truck wasn't outside my building at lunch. You are way more important to me than tacos."

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Wrath took a deep breath and then she nodded quickly, her eyes still trained on her hands. "So you- You still love me?" she asked, her voice wavering. "Even though I said terrible things? Even though I hurt myself?"

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George sat beside her and pulled her into a hug, closing his eyes and resting his head against hers. "Of course. That's not--it's not something I could change even if I wanted to. And I don't want to."

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Wrath leaned into him and she let him hold her tightly. "I love you too," she whispered to him. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I don't want you to change."

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"We'll find a way to make things work," George said, rubbing his thumb in a circle on her skin. "I don't like fighting with your siblings any more than you like watching it happen. It's gonna be okay. We just had a fight, that's all."

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"They just don't know how to be reasonable," she said as if she was so very reasonable all the time. "And I don't like it when they hurt you." She relaxed against him, glad to be held. "But I hate when I hurt you more."

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George kissed the side of her head. He said, "I'm all right. Been through a lot worse."

He held up his hand, like he was showing off his unmarked skin, and smiled a little. "See? Not a scratch."