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Who: Victor and Kat
What: Everything is a bit suck at the moment
When: Tuesday
Where: Victor's Place
Warnings: TBD


If honest with herself, Kat was starting to think of Victor's place as 'home'. A safe place, where everything bad could be shut out and she didn't have to think. She kept it to herself for now though. When he picked her up she'd just smiled and climbed into the car. She'd been quiet most of the ride, staring out at the city and hating how utterly normal it looked.

Somewhere out there something so evil had a friend of hers in it's claws, and people were still busy yelling at traffic. It felt horribly unfair. She wanted to yell at them, but didn't. Instead she played with a bracelet on her wrist and was quiet. When they arrived she walked into his home and put up her coat. It all felt mechanical. She wondered if any of it mattered.

She found herself on the couch with the desire to cry, but didn't. She'd cried more then enough over the past few days. Between the nightmares and that, she just felt tired. "I really want to run away." She finally gave. She toyed her fingers over her jeans. "And it feels like it wouldn't matter. Like nothing matters."

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He was adorable really. "Water is fine. Anything else might be bad." Smiling she dug into the cake, "that will be entertaining during pregnancy though, the whole over exited thing. I don't think the smiling would ever stop."

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He fetched her some water as well and then he actually sat down beside her to eat his cake. "Nope. Smiling would not cease. Nor would me singing and reading to your belly. I can't wait to read to my kid, you know? That's just something I always wanted and I never thought I'd have it."

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Laughing she shook her head, "You are way too adorable for your own good. It's a very nice picture." She set her hand over his for a moment, "and you will have all that. Embarrassing pictures included."

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Victor smiled warmly at her, glad to have her here to distract him. Terrible things were happening, but they still had each other.

"I'm looking forward to it," he said even though that was obvious. "Though you might also need to remind me not to only feed our child ice cream and cake."

There was something about saying 'our child' which caught Victor by surprise. It made him feel all warm inside.

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Her own reaction to those words was a bit surprising, but she curled her fingers along his. Saying hey let's go was probably not the best reaction to have.

"Same here, and yes. Responsible choices are good. Even though we are having cake for dinner. We will tell our kid that this is only in emergencies." It was nice to say that. "And it'd be an adventure."

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Victor gave her hand a squeeze. "Good plan," he said and he leaned in to kiss her cheek. "Doing it with you is going to be wonderful. You're kind and loving and I know there's no way you would make someone feel guilty for being who they are. Which is really important to me, and I know it is for you too. When I was younger I always said I would never have kids with someone who wouldn't be able to handle if they were gay or transgender or anything else. People deserve parents who love them no matter what and I know you will."

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"Of course I will. I can't understand parents who are like that. A child is a part of two people, something you helped grow. Not accepting who they are is just weird." She couldn't be hypocritical like that, not with knowing how hard Miranda and Jamie had it and how their family was the exception, not the rule. "I think Jamie would kick my ass if I ever said or did anything like that."

"Speaking of, he had his tattoo the other day. I met his boyfriend. They are also too adorable for their own good. And Jamie's happy. It's kind of cute to see."

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"I've never understood not loving someone for who they are. If you don't, then you don't know what love is." It seemed simple enough to Victor.

"That's really good to hear! Jamie deserves to be happy. What was his tattoo?"

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She gave him a bright smile, "and this is why you're going to be really good at being a dad. You're already wonderful at everything else."

"A baby giraffe with a blue ribbon, for Thomas." She smiled to the thought, "which only makes me want one myself."

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Victor just chuckled at her and he hoped she was right. He wanted to be a good dad and if he could be as half as wonderful at being a dad as his own father was, he reckoned he would do okay.

"That's really touching. I bet Thomas lost it," Victor said with a small smile. "Are you still wondering what to get?" Victor had a few tattoos himself, and he didn't regret any of them.

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She shook her head, "Ask him or Jamie. I had to go study." She hoped they hadn't minded, but she was glad to have been there. "But I'm willing to bet he did."

She nodded. "I want it to mean something, and I can't figure out where. Somewhere I can cover up, for whatever employers aren't keen on that. Or I'm just waffling way too much." She smirked, "I was tempted to text you to tell you I was getting your name, and then I realized you'd call my bluff."

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Victor laughed loudly at that. "Oh god! I would have called your bluff and then hoped I was right."

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"You would have been. Not a thing I would do. I think the only name I'd ever get would be my kids names. Or even then, a symbol." She shrugged and finished her cake. "Like Jamie did." She tilted her head, "for a moment I considered something Greek, but my grandfather does not need more ego."

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"It's not a thing I would ever want anyone to do either," he said with a smile. "But symbols are wonderful. Though I agree about your grandfather, but if it means something to you..."

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She shrugged as she put her plate in the sink, "it does and doesn't. He's important, but I'll look at it one way, and he another. Plus I want something that means something to me, not anyone else. So if I ever find the funds it'll probably be the laws. Maybe on my back."

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"I think that will look wonderful," he said, standing so he could kiss her. "Mine are all things which meant a lot to me."

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Smiling she returned the kiss before setting his plate aside as well. "Do you want to tell me or do you want to embarrass yourself with pictures?" She never tried pressuring. She liked hearing about his things, but she let him share them when he wanted. "Oh, whenever I either win the lottery or rob a bank do you want to go with me when I get it done?"

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"Pictures are probably more amusing," he said, a wry smile on his face. "Of course I'll go with you." He could also pay for it, but he was pretty sure she wouldn't be interested in that.

He left the table behind and waved her over to the living room again when he kept his photo albums. Opening one up, he flipped through it until he got to the awkward stage he had between being kicked out of his foster home and going to the academy. "Ah, here we go (http://images4.fanpop.com/image/photos/24000000/JDM-jeffrey-dean-morgan-24074395-371-255.jpg)," he laughed. "Look how tough I thought I was."

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"Thanks," she was glad he'd be there. She'd ask Jamie too, once she had the funds for it. She figured if she was careful she could get it done after the summer, depending on artists. The one Jamie had visited seemed decent.

She followed him, then sat down. She studied the picture before laughing. "Sorry. Okay not sorry completely amusing. I will repay you with pictures in turn, honest but this is gold."

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"It's okay, I encourage laughing at my ridiculous past," he said with a smile. There were more on the other page and he pointed at one in particular (http://images4.fanpop.com/image/photos/24000000/JDM-jeffrey-dean-morgan-24074388-193-322.jpg) where he was making a ridiculous face. "Ah, youth."

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She gave another laugh to that, "I can't decide if this is adorable or ridiculous. I'm going to go with both." She grinned and set her hand on his knee. "Thank you for showing me."

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"I have my high school photo here somewhere, tucked away it-" He muttered as he flipped about in the book and then he came to it. "There it is (http://www.celebyearbookphotos.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/12/Jeffrey-Dean-Morgan.jpeg)," he said, amused. "My hair...the horror."

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That only made her laugh again and she shook her head. "Tie's. Really. For high school pictures? I'll leave everything else alone but oh honey." Chuckling she patted his arm.

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"I was trying to look fancy!" he protested with a laugh. "Can a fedora make this better?" he asked as he turned to the next photo (http://media-cache-ec4.pinterest.com/192x/83/7f/a7/837fa7d5f69a637ff62019726f08b5d1.jpg). "This was after starting at the academy. I was being suave."

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"Oh God. No. No it doesn't make it any better. More hilarious, certainly. And who ever told you fedora's were suave?" She smirked at him, "because they lied."